What a month. I started the year being ill, having to cancel Game Day on the 3rd of January, and work was a bit rubbish to begin with. The highs, I'm aiming to watch 365 movies in 2018, as I type this I've watched 31 and I might get another one in before the month ends because there's a couple Caroline wants to see with me. I'm also doing Tonyo Files on my Facebook, it's private though but a good way to make a fun biography and keep memories. I'll post one here for an example of what I'm doing...
I thought I'd add one of my more prouder moments. I've made 31 files in all, and about all kinds of gaming experiences. I'm looking at doing my top 25 movies in February, I haven't even made a start making them yet.
I bought Monster Hunter World for my Xbox One on release. Haven't even had the chance to play it yet. My sleep pattern has been a bit crap, Maverick keeps me busy all day, and there's bits of house work to be done, and work to pay the bills. In saying that, I am really enjoying watching a bunch of new movies and now I'm sat here blogging.
Yesterday, Bernard The Man came round for a game of Carcassonne. My mum bought it for him for Christmas, he's been studying the game and said he could beat me. He's got the right idea of the game, he just made a couple of mistakes by placing a farmer where it was wasted, and he wasn't able to stop me from stealing two of his cities. I beat him 161 to 41. I gave him some strong advice and I think he'll be a strong player one day.
I have been suffering quite a bit for a while with depression. That may be too a strong term for it in my mind, but it is. It's nothing else. I have a few friends who are in the same boat with depression and anxiety. Last week, I had a chat with a friend at work about paranormal experiences, and adding that with my files I've been making, I realised that I've done so much, so much to tell, loads of life experiences, and so much to look forward to, I haven't felt massively down for a few days.
As long as you have things to look forward to and aim to create new memories, then life is good. No need to get stressed over anything really. The only problem life brings are other people sometimes, but who cares about the idiots in life. All is good.
Anyway, going to the dentist today for a filling. Not an experience in life to look forward to but it needs to be done and it'll be over quick.
I could say a lot more but I'm dying for a cup of tea. Nice having hot drinks in this awful windy cold weather. I love it when the cold weather comes but eventually you get sick of it and you want something warm to happen. Spring draws nearer, and by the summer time, I'll be begging for autumn again.
February will be good. Game Day in Sheffield, my birthday, and the start of a two week holiday from work. Not bad, so getting the dentist out of the way on the last day of January, bring it.
Depression and anxiety can be defeated. It may take some thought and sometimes a quiet moment to just to take a step back and breathe. But it can be beaten by the thought of who you are. I hope what I say here can help a little bit.
I know a few people who suffer from these, and I feel you. I had issues when I was at school, not everyone knows that, but I discovered later in life I was EXTREMELY uncomfortable in crowds. I beat that. Now I'm a noisy bastard, don't care what people think, and go to conventions surrounded by thousands of people, while being noisy and not caring what people think. :D
The people I know who suffer from depression and anxiety, are bloody good people. People I would try my best for and give my time for when I can. They also know that if they need a chat, they have people to talk to and I'm one of them. You guys are not alone.
Think of beating it like this... You have unique experiences in life, good times that nobody else can take away from you. Cherish the good memories that you have, and the main thing.. LOOK FORWARD TO THE NEW EXPERIENCES AND MEMORIES YOU'RE GOING TO CREATE. Don't sit back and think you're not going to do something after you've planned doing it, go ahead, have a go, take photos, write a blog, keep things for memorabilia. Have a plan to do something and hold on to it. Life is pretty fun and has a lot of amazing people in it. :) When you've created your new experience, a new memory, you can always sit back with your favourite drink, think about it, and other fond memories, and smile. You are awesome.
This has all come from having a chat with a friend about past experiences, which I must say were exciting, and also from making my Tonyo Files and seeing how much fun I've had and how many cool things have happened, even if not everything went my way, it's still all a real life experience I cherish.
I've had some down moments recently, so much so I was thinking about going to the doctors with it. But I don't think I will because I have things to look forward to, and a lot to be proud of from my life... and so have you.
To my friends, one of the things I cherish most is having you in my life. :) Now, let's have a cup of something hot. I'd say tea but some prefer coffee. :D Sod it, hot chocolate, everyone loves hot chocolate. ;)
All is good.
Originally posted on my Facebook.
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